An unpublished Instagram post written by the late Caroline Flack has been publicised by her family in wake of her tragic death this weekend.
The post – reportedly written just weeks before she took her own life – revealed how her “whole world and future was swept from under [her] feet” over claims she assaulted her boyfriend Lewis Burton.
The former Love Island presenter, who was found dead in her London home aged 40 on Saturday, a day after she discovered she would stand trial accused of assault, penned that the domestic incident was an accident.
In the message, which Flack’s family has released after the star’s advisers warned her against posting it, she said she “took responsibility for what happened that night” but insisted she “was NOT a domestic abuser”.
The star – who was stripped of her Love Island presenting role by ITV while she faced trial – also opened up about her inner demons and the pressure of being in the public spotlight, adding that “truth has been taken out of my hands and used as entertainment”.
Burton and Flack found themselves in the middle of a highly publicised court case after details of their alleged assault hit headlines.
The post's release comes alongside the start of an inquest on Wednesday into Flack’s death, as the Crown Prosecution Service faces criticism for its decision to charge her.
Flack was due to stand trial next month after pleading not guilty to assaulting her boyfriend, Lewis Burton, with a lamp at her London flat.
At a pre-trial hearing in December, the court was told that 27-year-old Burton sustained a “significant injury to his head” and had dialled 999.
It is understood that Burton, who has said 'he is heartbroken' by her death, had told police and prosecutors he wanted to withdraw his complaint against Flack.
In the post, which has been exclusively handled by the Eastern Daily Press, as per the Flack family's wishes, she wrote of her arrest on 12 December: “Within 24 hours my whole world and future was swept from under my feet and all the walls that I had taken so long to build around me, collapsed. I am suddenly on a different kind of stage and everyone is watching it happen.
“I have always taken responsibility for what happened that night. Even on the night. But the truth is ... It was an accident.”
Flack said she had been having “some sort of emotional breakdown for a very long time”, adding: “But I am NOT a domestic abuser. We had an argument and an accident happened. An accident.”
An image of Flack's bedroom, featuring a blood-stained bed, were also publicised following the accident – something that the former presenter dismissed as nothing to do with the alleged assault.
“That was something very sad and very personal,” she wrote. The reason I am talking today is because my family can’t take any more. I’ve lost my job. My home. My ability to speak.
“And the truth has been taken out of my hands and used as entertainment. I can’t spend every day hidden away being told not to say or speak to anyone.”
She added: “For a lot of people, being arrested for common assault is an extreme way to have some sort of spiritual awakening but for me, it’s become the norm. I’ve been pressing the snooze button on many stresses in my life – for my whole life.
“I’ve accepted shame and toxic opinions on my life for over 10 years and yet told myself it’s all part of my job. No complaining. The problem with brushing things under the carpet is ... they are still there and one day someone is going to lift that carpet up and all you are going to feel is shame and embarrassment.”
Flack also apologised for the impact on those close to her, writing: “I’m so sorry to my family for what I have brought upon them and for what my friends have had to go through.
“I’m not thinking about ‘how I’m going to get my career back’. I’m thinking about how I’m going to get mine and my family’s life back.”
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